No Pain…No Joy…The Feelings… Gone Numb…

Its like being naked in a snowy winter night; its like being exposed to the chilly stormy wind of the cold desert for a real long time ; its like being the victim of a severe frost bite that makes your senses go numb…Its like keeping your eyes wide open in extreme darkness and after some times it doesn’t really matter if the eyes are at all open or closed…Its like falling from a great altitude , suspending yourself to a “free falling”(just like performing sky diving, only without any assurance of survival). Initially its frightful, and then after some times --- a surrender --- to reality, to fate, to one’s destiny--- waiting for a severe thud ,a thrust…when met with the ground…----
All of the sensibilities for the first few moments are “feelings” (good or bad)… ‘it’ remaining unchanged for some times give birth to “joy” or “pain” (its nothing but the different names of the same lane…/or , the different lanes that lead to the same destiny)…the “feelings” persisting for a longer while thus makes it lose its significance ---- feelings remaining the same forever ---may convert to boredom--- and then to nothing and thus “numb’’. And when someone accepts this numbness, and welcomes the thud with widely spread open arms (adjustment via compromise)---its called maturity.
Once the silly nice stuffs that made me smile have almost lost its meaning---today smiling makes my cheek bones ache…and the intense heart aches that made --- me cry , and made so many of my nights sleepless can no more bring the dead dry tears to life…they call it “growing up’’…my perception of life…and the perspective of viewing life being slightly ‘not so normal’…I call it going “NUMB”
“ No pain…No joy…The feelings gone Numb”…